Well, what can I say except I'm glad that the month of March is out of the way since it wasn't exactly a happy time for me with being crippled by pain with a bad back - the result of having scoliosis and lot of pressure since being pregnant and giving birth. I don't want to drone on about it as since having spinal injections I'm feeling a lot better but one thing I want to mention is how lucky I feel to have had my wonderful and supportive family to help during a pretty dark month in which I was not just physically unable to function but was also really struck down with a bad bout of depression - it was pretty difficult to manage day to day tasks to say the least!
Now that the big black cloud that hovered over me has lifted its so much easier to talk about it being a very dark time and I guess I just want to acknowledge that it is ok to have down days and speak out for help when you need it - something I'm not very good at doing. I tried to carry on as normal then there came a point where I had to wave the white flag and accept defeat. With lots of love and support from the family, numerous hospital and doctors appointments and regular contact with my councillor I'm now back on track but for anyone who does suffer with anxiety and or depression take a leaf out of BT's book and realise that its good to talk!
But its not all doom and gloom, I have a very exciting future to look forward to as I'm in the process of setting up my own business working as a Recruitment Consultant. Its early days yet (I've registered with HRMC, bought my domain and arranged time to speak with a graphic designer about creating a logo and my website.) But any new mum will tell you just how difficult it is to try and find a work life balance to suit the demands of family and home life - well its just a good job we can multi-task! Even if I just earn half the amount of money I did when working full time I'm happy with that as I will still maintain a healthy amount of time focusing on bringing Freya up - something a price cant be put on!
So watch this space as the pieces of my puzzle are put together and of course for more updates on my wonderful daughters progress!
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