Exhausted at 7am - Energy burst at 7pm!!

I always like to be quite positive and see the happy side of things and I'm not even sure about posting this as its not all smiles but it is the reality of being a little uncomfortable and my intentions are to document my pregnancy so here goes! This was written on Friday 18th June.

It wasn't a nice experience and everything is ok now but I was taken into hospital on Sunday 13th June with severe back and chest pains, they gave me pethadine to ease the pain - not too sure if I will choose that as a method of pain relief in labour since it took me until Wednesday to remember who I am but hey, it did the job and allowed them to run their tests.

Thankfully they ruled out their first diagnosis which was a broken blood vessel in my heart - thank mother nature for that! They gave me tablets to stop acid rising and sitting in my gullet and advised that Freya could have been sitting on a nerve which shocked my system (you're telling me!!) The hospital staff were brilliant and Graham remained so calm throughout, they were going to keep me over night but as the pain had subsided I just wanted to be at home with my Doctor G!

Test results showed that my blood pressure was high and protein was found in a urine sample, I didn't think anything of it at the time, well, I was in cookoo land after all! But when I went to the doctors the following Tuesday protein was still present, its now Friday and I am still waiting for more results as they have been sent to the lab for further examination. What do pee and protein have to do with it I hear you ask? Well, there's a condition called pre-eclampsia which I really hope I do not have but it has been suggested. So until I know for sure I am listening to every call of my body, eating healthily (although it hurts my tummy) and drinking plenty of fluids and resting. It would appear the latter is actually all I have been doing even if my head says otherwise!!

Hence the title! I really need to get a grip of this but I am absolutely exhausted at 7am when the alarm goes off, so much so that I don't even have the energy to get out of bed even if I need a pee I just (try to) roll over and fall back asleep! That's been the pattern this week. Honestly, if I had to evacuate my house in the morning I just couldn't do it! This of course has played havoc with all sense of routine, I just hope that it's a phase and next week will be better. It's getting my mood down but I am just so god damn tired!!!

So, 11am rolls round and I eventually awake, and its like damn, theres no way in the world I would do that normally but its just what's happened the last few days. I went into work on Wednesday afternoon, the kuffuffle of getting two busses and doing the walk in between has certainly given me the kick up the behind to get back on the road, by the time I got to work I was shattered - I had only been awake a couple of hours!!

And on Thursday same thing happened, 7am slum! I then got myself showered and ready to go into work albeit late, I thought oh I'll just have a little sit down, sat on the bed and fell asleep - so that was a right off! ARGGGGHHH!!!

By the time 7pm rolls round I have an energy burst and start to feel productive and less useless but that doesn't last long as I then feel pants for not being able to sleep at a normal bed time of say 10pm, instead I find myself tossing and turning until the small hours of the morning all in a state of pain because of my back... And the cycle turns again! Ohhhh please just be a phase!